Day 7: Dear Ex

Dear Ex:

Where do I begin? First I want to thank you. Not for being the best man to me "obviously" but because every single thing that I went through with you gave me the wisdom that I have today. You have no idea how much I grew from dating you. I know what true love is now because you showed me what love wasn’t. You were the first and up until this year "only" person I ever loved. I was convinced that you were the last person that I was going to date because I found him...I found my pot of gold (at least that’s what I thought) You opened my eyes to the theme that I used for my novel "A Man Will Only Do What You Allow Him To" I heard that phrase plenty of times but of course, I'm hard headed. For some reason my relationship with you really helped me to see the truth in that phrase. I look at you now and I see you still living the exact same lifestyle. It drives me crazy! and let me tell you why. Despite our lack of happily ever after bliss, I know that you have the possibility to be an awesome partner/husband. You're getting too old to be caring on like you do. I'm sure you've come across some awesome women so I'm confused as to why you haven’t settled down with one of them yet. I would much rather find out that you're married and decided to give up the lavish living than finding out that you’re doing the exact same things. I have sympathy for you because now I think there must be something wrong. I think you are cautious of commitments because you don’t deal with loss too well. Its fine to be hurt from your childhood and your past but you can’t take that into your future. Despite the crazy lifestyle you live, you're a pretty sweet, goofy, and cool person. Why don’t you let that light shine? I want you to know that I have absolutely no hard feelings towards you and wish you the best in life.

The next woman that you meet, if she’s everything that you ever imagined...Wife her crazy boy :)

Day 6: A Stranger

So one day my Model (My BFF Meron) and I were at a car dealership getting her a car. The salesman kept talking to us and mentioning God's name. I don’t remember exactly what he was saying but he had to have mentioned God's name like 20 times. We ended up at his desk and our conversation went from getting her a car to giving us a positive message. He looked at both of us and told us we were destined to be friends. He told me that I was sick and that I could relax because everything was going to be okay. In my head I was like (Whatever I don’t believe it. This man is just saying stuff) He then looked back at me and was like, didn’t I tell you that you're fine, why don’t you believe me? Needless to say I was sick and very nervous. I started crying. At that moment I said okay I believe you. He told her that she was in a bad relationship and that she needed to get out of it and she actually was. He told us a lot more things that night, all which have came true. He told me that I was going to be sooo successful and influential. All of this was taking place in the middle of the show room at a desk. I couldn’t tell you what the rest of the customers were doing or if other people were there; our conversation was that intense. He told my Model and I that we needed each other and that we would always be there to help each other. He ended the conversation with telling us to go to our car and pray together which we did for the very first time. She didn’t even get a car that night but we received an awesome message from a pure stranger. I called the dealership a few weeks later and asked for him and no one knew of who he was...

I have a feeling that who we thought was a stranger was someone we knew all along. :)

Day 5: My Dreams

Dear Dreams!

Everyday I make a point to achieve you. Everyday I make an effort to add more to you. I never neglect you and I've never given up on you. But lately...lately you've been acting strange. It feels like our relationship is somehow falling apart. Things have become much harder and confusing. When I think about you I'm so happy. The problem is when I make plans for us. Are you scared of commitments or something? Why do you act all funny when I make plans for our future? You start changing and finding ways to stress me out.

Dreams, will you please get your act together? National Best Selling Author, Owner of a Non-Profit that helps women reach wholeness and peace, TV show host, and writer extraordinaire...Get with the program!

Day 4: The Best Sister in the World

My Big/Little Sister!

So, I don’t know how fun or amazing my life would have been without my sister being in it! When I was younger, I wanted to be just like her, I would even buy the exact same clothes as her. They say the younger sibling will learn faster when they have an older sibling, hmmm.... is that what happened? You've been there to support me in every milestone of my life and you've been there to help me with every obstacle of my life.

Remember when you disowned me for a year because I bought the same shoes as you?Remember when you used to let me drive to Kaia's house when I was 15 years old? (No DL LOL)Remember when you would let me drive from one freeway entrance to the next exit so I could learn how to drive on the freeway?Remember when I would wake you up at 5am and ask you to curl my hair for school?**Note** (Most of the fun memories are "too much" for me to post on here LOL) I.E. Cancun, James, 18 + club, need I say more :)

I want to shout THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart but I also want you to know that I'm looking forward to creating memories of me supporting you and making a difference in your life...

Love You!Metis

Day 3: My Mommy and Daddy

Let me start off by saying that I wouldn’t trade my parents for the world... Well, on some days I would (hehe)

Dear Mommy,At first I thought our relationship was weird, being that we didn’t start getting alone until I was in my 20's but then I meet more and more mothers and daughters who shared the same late blooming relationship. It’s great to know were normal! I do however, hate that we had to start that way and I hate that it's such a common thing. Being that I'm not a person that lives in the past, I'm able to learn from it and enjoy what we have now, which is a fun, loving and very close relationship. I laugh all day at you-literally. You have a ton of personality, even while you're in the hospital bed. Who in the world gets mad at the hospital because they won’t bring them a chicken wrap, 2 days after they just had surgery on their neck...only you! Most people don’t know, but I moved home to help take care of you after your 2nd surgery because you mean that much to me. I'm looking forward to more laughs and creating tons of memories that I can forever share with my children.

Love Ya,Miss Piggy

Daddy!

My very close relationship with you is no secret to you or the world :) Everyone knows that I'm a daddy's girl. I would however like to explain why I'm such a daddy's girl. You are the ultimate role model; the definition of a man. You were in the military while I was growing up yet you never missed any of my birthdays. I knew without a doubt that on May 4th, I would see my daddy sitting in my living room when I got home from school. You disciplined me over the phone and mailed me tons of beautiful gifts from all of your destinations. My morals and values come from you. You always told me to be honest, "a man that lies will steal and cheat too." I remember when you used to teach yourself how to do my college homework just so you could help me or when I used to have you proofread my essays and you would re-write them (I always turned in your re-write versions). You aren’t a "do as I say, not as I do" daddy, you show me how to live right by being an example. I watch you constantly give of your time and your money and you ever backed it up by saying, "I never get tired of helping other people." Some may say I'm picky with choosing a man but they don’t know I have an awesome father who has shown me the characteristics of a man: a provider (not just financially but emotionally and spiritually), a leader, God-fearing, wise yet seeks more wisdom, loyal to his commitments, responsible, a faithful steward of his money, and to top it all off you are skilled in fixing cars and things around the house, cleaning, and cooking. You are the exact definition of a father and they should have your picture in the dictionary!

Thank you for being such a wonderful daddy to me!

Love You,Meatball, Nugget, Meaty Mouse <--a few of the nicknames my daddy calls me :)

Day 2 My Crush(es)

Crushes are so fun. They bring out the little girl in you. Remember when you used to have crushes on boys in grade school? Perhaps you wrote their name on your binders and drew hearts around it or if you were like me, you wrote their name on your leg or arm with a pen (hehe)

Crush #1 My PastSoo, all of my closest friends from Vegas know that I had the biggest crush on a certain some one as a teenager. His name is dun dun dun dun da dun...TJ. Anywho, I loved me some TJ. He was my sister's best male friend and I practically HARRASSED him :) I would answer the phone every time he called and I would constantly ask him when he was going to take me out. Despite the drastic age difference (I was 14 and he was 23), I was honestly convinced that he would one day give in...

Crush #2 The Real Deal Anywho, my current crush is "The Real Deal." He's a handsome, ambitious, respectable, God-loving and fearing, articulate, and did I mention sexy man. What I like most is that his outside matches his inside; he's not a waste of body! He spends a lot of time reading and of course I think that's super sexy :) So...You're probably wondering if I've approached my crush... Well if you know me then you know I have. You only get one life :) And yes, I'm glad I did...I challenge anyone that reads this (yes I’m talking to you) to approach your crush!

Crush #3 This is More Than a Crush...I'm soooo in love with LL Cool J *OMG* If he wasn’t married, I would actually have hope LOL. I've never I mean never met a man so beautiful in person. I was speechless. I froze right in my footsteps and couldn’t even say hi. He is definitely crowned the most perfect and sexiest man that ever existed here on earth... Hey Lover!

30 Journals in 30 Days

Calling All JAZZY CHICKS! Why don’t you join me as I partake in this fun journalism challenge? For the next 30 days, my friends and I will be blogging about 30 different topics. I'm extremely excited to share all of our fun and INTERESTING stories and pictures as we get to know each other a little better. I am encouraging all of you to join forces with your fellow JAZZY CHICKS and do this challenge too...Happy Blogging!

Day 1 — Your Best FriendDay

2 — Your CrushDay

3 — Your parentsDay

4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)Day

5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror